it depends on you

Hai .
Uhmmmm i was tired yesterday. Uhmm on the afternoon i met Mayndi again for 3 times .
Actually i don’t know where i have to start this story because i’m extremely tired and even i have random things on my mind. AHHH SERIOUSLY I CAN’T DESCRIBE WHAT I FEEL NOW. IT’S REALLY RANDOMMMMMMM!!!!!
We met at sevel matraman. But before we met, i’ve waited him till 1 hour and it was really boring. Wasn’t it? Finally he came and......................................................we said hallo each other and laughed each other like we ‘ve never met before (such a trashy thing) hahaha

Ok ! go to the main topic now! Bcs i don’t want to waste a time bcs i’m tired now and i want to finish this story as fast as possible.
Basically i met him bcs i wanna say something. And i have to tell those thing to him asap bcs it ruined my mind everytime i think about it. . as u know, we were close each other from July but till now i still don’t have any relationship with him at all.

It’s not about i’m rushing but............................ I just need a certainty. Initially i was offending him about his past thru a joke. But over time i entered to the topic hahaha i asked him whether he still keeps in touch with his ex or not hahaha he said that he still keeps in touch with her and even actually he wants go back to her hahaha (i know that from his eyes) i realized that he still loves her even sometimes he said that he wanted to move on.
BUT the surprising thing is......... HE SAID THAT HE LIKES ME. okay i was happy anyway BUT it wasn't the right time to be happy ya hahahah but he didn't want to start any relationship with me because he didn't want to have a relationship meanwhile he still loves his ex. (such a good defense) SMART!

i just tried to opened his mind but he just didin't realize it at all hahahaha too pathetic right? ._.
YOUR EX DIDN'T CARE TO YOU. ME? I CARE TOO MUCH!
but it was stupid. i suggested him to approach her again but i know it wasn't what i want.
i want him to be with me but he just didn't realize it. he's too blind i think.....................!
you want her but does her want you? does she care at all? 
even though he doesn't tell me a clear decision but i know the answer.
i know he prefers to decide to go back with her although there's no certainty than opens his mind and his heart for another girl.
i think because of yesterday, you'll realize but BIG NO!
okay i won't force your feeling. IT DEPENDS ON YOU :) I'VE TOLD YOU MANY TIMES, IT DEPENDS ON YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll appreciate ur choice. i know you better off like this. it's what you want,right?
congrats. i hope you both will be back together ya :'''')
i'll stop here. i know maybe it'll takes a long time to heal these pain. but sure i'll get over it. i think you were a good person after daniel but...............................you both are same :''')
it's your choice . i hope you won't regret it. i've tried my best to open ur mind but you prefer to close it.
i hope u'll be happy. thanks for a short memories. it'll be the last time we met. :))

goodbye MR. FUNNY (re :mayndi)