Trapped between responsibility and desire

Wow it's been almost 3 months i stopped posting .
Anyway, what's up guyssssss?
I hope y'all ok ^^

Uhmm to be honest, i don't know exactly what i want to post about.
I was using Internet , then googling and then suddenly i remember my blog. hahaha
By the way,about 1 month ago, i took an english course with my boyfriend and everything was running smoothly, i think. I course every Saturday from 11 a.m to 3 p.m. I'm enjoying it, really. I was glad for having new friends and getting new lessons exactly. It was my first time to take an english course. I've never had a course before because i just don't want to :p Uhmmmm i don't know. lol

But now i'm getting confused. My uncle suddenly came to my house and then he invited me and my sister to go with him,my aunt,and my cousins to stay overnight at Mongolian Camp in Bogor on Saturday-Sunday. Seriously i really wanna go there. It's such a good place and even a beautiful place!!!! I've never been there before. And maybe i'll never go there unless i got much money *lol.  I wanna join them but i can't. *sighs*
No one can invite me to hang out on Saturday. Never!
It's because i have to be in class every Saturday. I've been absent 2 times because i was late for registering so i don't wanna be absent anymore even tho i still have 4 chances not to be in class.
It's just because i know my responsibility. I chosen to take a course so i shouldn't be absent just because some reasons such as just for fun, right???

uhmmm well, i shouldn't be sad. I still have a chance to have fun on the other days. ^^

boring boring boring

It's been almost 2 weeks i spent my holiday at home.
But seriously it's really,totally,extremely BORING *sighs*
I ain't had plans. I ain't had idea where to go.
Because u know, it's been raining all the time.
I just can't go out then.

I wish i could meet doraemon and then begging
to him so that he would stop the rain.

I wish..............
Hahahaha x_x

between bored and lazy haha

I consider changing my blogger template bcs I kinda bored with this template.

I've been searching for some templates but i haven't got a nice template yet. 

Can anyone tell me where i can find a nice blogger template for my blog?

Anw,I wanna put some stuffs here like  mp3 widget, some arts , or a chatting box  hahaha my blog is so standard,u know. 

But the thing is..........

I'M SO LAZY. hahahah

Ok. I would re-design my blog later if I wasn't lazy anymore or if I have got an inspiration . *chuckles*

I have no tittle for this post now...

The best moment for all college students is................ when The Lecturer said ,"Sorry, quiz for today maybe should be postponed" hahahaha XD
hahaha and suddenly all student in class (include me) shouted ,"ALHAMDULILLAH" ^^
I don't know what kind of student i am.......... x_x
I've read the materials for the quiz but idk my head just threw out everything that I've read last night. I mean, I just remember a bit. lol

Lately, I would rather sit alone and then write something on my blog or stalk everything than watching TV.
I just feel comfortable with it. I mean, I can say everything that i want to say here without worrying people will give me a direct criticism. And people would have no rights to complain then.

This is my second world.
I mean, this is my favorite place for me to share with.
So, If you don't like whatever what i'm saying here, then just stop reading and close this page and get out of my blog. Simple .hehehe ^^

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Anyway, when I was googling, i found out an article that's entitle "How to have a Long-term Relationship"
I think it was a good article . So, y'all should read this..............
  

1. Begin by simply being friends with the person you are seeking a relationship with. This stage is vital as it allows you to learn more about your partner, as well as confirm/deny your feelings towards a relationship with them.  

2.Tell each other everything. If there's something you don't like about them, tell them how you feel. The relationship isn't going to work unless you settle your differences.  

3.Never cheat. Cheating has ruined many relationships. Being with someone else will make your partner wonder why someone else was better than them. If you are seriously considering cheating, you should consider ending the relationship so your partner won't get hurt.

4.Be spontaneous. Surprise your partner with tickets to a game or movie. Even just the simple flowers on a doorstep with a cute note would work. 

5.Spend time with each other. 

6.Tell your love how much you love them. If you don't do this often, they're going to feel neglected and like you don't care any more.

7. Make the commitment. Choosing to overlook deficiencies, choosing to deal kindly rather than harshly with mistakes, choosing to do for the other person that which you know will make them feel special. Having someone who set aside their own wishes to make you feel special is incredibly heartwarming and flattering. Do this for your mate and watch the relationship blossom.

But more so, communication can be the best key of the longterm relationship though. You may need to be fully frank with someone and let them know how you feel.^^
So, keep communication open and DON'T CHEAT .......... ^^

one word :Tired

TIRED.

 Tired is the easiest and the most simple word to say when you just feel like the world is not fair to you.  
You will wonder “why?why?and why?”
 

and then you’ll say  “I’m tired of this. I’m just tired of everything”

Tired. Yeah . It’s happening to me right now. I’m tired of something which always hurts me.

Idk why but my friends’ always nagging at me whenever I start crying over someone who hurts me.

They said ,”Stop being sad just for someone who always hurt you”.

In fact, how can you stop being sad all of a sudden just because a few words? How can you stop being sad meanwhile your heart feels so hurt?

I’m just tired of being in love with the wrong person. I’m tired of having such a stupid relationship. I’m tired of getting my hopes up and then watch them falls everytime.  I’m tired of being disappointed. I’m tired of loving someone who doesn’t love me wholeheartedly.

“I wanna have a serious relationship with the right one.”

Just it………………

I’m sure many of you will probably have the same thought with me.  I know you all are tired of getting the wrong person over and over again, right? ^^

But here, it’s back to the reality. Without realizing it,some people always fall in love with the wrong person over and over again. And so do I. It’s hard to recognize who’s a (real) good one than a bad one.

Because sometimes a bad person will become a good person in the beginning. That’s the problem.

I’m tired because being in love with the wrong person hurts.

I was thinking like…..

 “Love…….Some people say that Love is a great thing.  Love is happiness. But why do some people get hurt just because of love?”

And the answer is………….because they love the wrong person.

Basically, Love never hurts. But loving the wrong person, does.  If love hurts, then it’s not Love. I mean, it’s just a temporary feelings for a temporary person to share with. Understand?

Suddenly I don’t know what should I write again.. Because I’M TIRED ^^ hahaha

Babayyyyyyyyyyy…………

as soon as possible

I have nothing to do here. so i open my blog and write everything i want.

a few days ago i missed him so much. I don't know why!

maybe it's because i was listening to Like a star by Taeyeon and The One .

hahaha seriously we looks like strangers.

i always try not to care but i always care over and over again.

But when i missed him , i didn't mean i can't forget him. I can. But maybe not now. but asap ^^

Missing someone is normal right?

I hope i'll get over him as soon as possible. because I know he already forget me.

I know no matter how hard I try to go back , I just can't go there. Never!.

He has become my past. My past is always gonna be my PAST. NOT MY PRESENT OR EVEN MY FUTURE.

because It's like reading a book over and over again. You've known how it ends.

But I won't hate my past. I just wanna LEARN from the past.

It'll be better^^

I'LL GET OVER IT AS SOON AS POSSIBLE..........................

BAD DAY and I NEED YOU

hhh i'm in a bad mood now!!!!!!!
yang Pertama, gile aje dimarahin abang2 angkot gara2 gue bilang kembali seribu . dan abangnya malah bilang gini 'apaan kembali seribu?ini kurang 3ribu!!' ......%^&!~#@%....(dan abang pun tetap ngedumel terus layaknya ibu2. au dah ngomong apaan) tapi yaudah akhirnya gue kasih drpd malu yekaaan-_-
ih sumpah dalem hati gue mah dimana2 pasti 2rb dan ber3 jd 6rb krna kan gue sama lita dan devi eh krn mereka turun duluan jdnya gue bayar belakangan :/ malah jd gue yg kena wkwkwk
Yang Kedua, what's going on with my account? i can't even log in on yahoo. AND THE WORST THING IS..............yahoo told me that MY ACCOUNT HAS BEEN LOCKED FOR A WHILE.
SO I CAN'T USE MY ACCOUNT FOR A WHILE. BUT TILL WHEN? HUH?

 Yang Ketiga, my phone's non active because my battery was drained since morning . So i have to wait till i'll be home then charge my phone.
yang Keempat,  I DON'T KNOW . I'M JUST NOT IN THE MOOD . JUST IT.

I NEED MOODBOOSTER TO FIX MY MOOD. I NEED YOU (?) HAHAHA

there's a good day and a bad day

Need Moodbooster!!!

I NEED YOU <3

semester 4 is coming....

hai guysss..^^
i'm back again..... are u happy? hahaha lol
oh it's my first day in semester 4 and yaaaaaaaaaaaa you know what? i just finished my class a few hours ago and there're only 6 students in class. so my lecturer came out from class earlier. and now i'm supposed to be home actually but............................
hahaha guess what!!! where i am now? now i'm at warnet ^^
idk why do i go to warnet. because i guess i'll be bored if i go home now. it's still 11 a.m loooh :/

so yaaaa i'm here and then getting online and finally open my blog again.
zzzzzzz you know what? my boyfie didn't go to campus today and i heard about it from his friend bcs he told me that he was absent. hmmmmm i really wanna meet him actually and meanwhile i think i look beautiful today so ya i want him to see me today ^^ hahaha lol abaikan!! 

hopefully my 4th semester will be a lucky semester for me ^^ amin ..
hehehe loveya!^^ muaaaah :*

idk....

hay blogger..........
YOU KNOW WHAT? FINALLY I CAN OPEN MY BLOG AGAIN AHAHAHA^^
but i'm using wifi here (ssstttt.....)hahaha
how's life?
is it good? i'm not yaaaaa.
hmmmmm i've been through so much problem lately. actually since February.
first, my holiday is going to end a few days again and......................since the first time i was in holiday, i didn't feel my holiday is fun AT ALL........
second, i got a bad value in my univ. and i was really shocked knowing it. huhuhuh
third, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idk actually.......... honestly i feel there's something wrong here. either about me or about him. i dont know.
i feel he's changed a bit. he looks like kinda doesn't care. i mean , he doesn't look like he used to be.
i miss when he randomly texted me and said he missed me. i know he shouldn't text me everytime. i know that. but at least we can have a good conversation everyday.
sometimes i wanna back to Januari. but no problem^^ because 7days again we've been 2 months in this relationship.^^^ hihihih so excited laaaaaa
in case he knows how much i love him and how much he means to me, will he back to he used to be?
sorry if i'm overthinking.
 kangen banget banget banget sama jeremi.<3<3

BUT NO MATTER he turns into the other person from now, it can't change the way i feel about him.
i love him. i'm sure he loves me too. he's a GOOD guy^^
he won't hurt me. :))))
i trust him^^
saranghaeyo my J ................

come back soon

YOU

HAVE 

NO IDEA 

HOW MUCH 

I MISS YOU 

JEREMI !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Come back soon.........................................^^

SARANGHAEYO .............. jer.... {}[}{}

some things that can break a relationship

Sore semua!!!

Hhhhhh it’s really hot outside! isn’t it ?

This time I wanna share about “Things that can break a relationship”

Actually idk why I wanna share bout that ya…

But I just wanna tell all of you who’s reading this…………

Ok ………… there are some things that can break a relationship..

Let’s start….

1. Not Open

        Hmmm sometimes ur couple is scared to tell about anything openly.

So there are so many things that ur couple hides from you. Maybe about his family, his friends,

 his neighbourhood, what he likes and even what he dislikes.

2. LIE

            Ahahaha actually I really like about this one!

Hey but it doesn’t mean gue suka boongin orang but it means gue paling suka ngebahas yg satu ini hahaha

sometimes ur couple frequently did this. Yayayaya BUT…………

sure he has some reasons loh. So don’t think negative ya

according to what I’ve seen and what I’ve heard, sometimes he lies to you just because he’s scared you’ll get mad if he tells the truth. (sbnrnya sih dipikir-pikir bener tapi gak selamanya bener). 

Maybe he’s scared if he told u he’s hangout with his friends, ,you would think negative and u would 

forbid him to go hangout.

Second, ,maybe he lies because it’s good for you to not know the truth . it means he doesn’t want you to misunderstand him :) (ex: when he’s with his girl-bestfriend, he doesn’t want you to think that he was dating another girl.) so girls, jangan berpikir negatif dulu ya^^

Third, Frequently he’s lying because HE LIKES SOMEBODY ELSE.

When your couple gets boring with his relationship with you, he searches another girl just to decrease

 his boredom. and yaaaaaa when he’s with another girl, he wouldn’t text you and even he would 

be lying to you and it’s like “sorry dear I forgot to bring my phone” or “Sorry my phone battery was low” 

or “sorry I didn’t see ur text” or blablabla…………………..

3. BETRAYAL or CHEAT ON

             Hmmmmmmmm it’s the pathetic thing ever!

Sometimes ur couple do this because he’s unhappy with his relationship. So he will choose to 

search another girl who can make him happier.

He betrays you because he’s bored with you or maybe it’s a hobby for  “player” hahaha

sometimes he has a reason why he did it to you, either it’s a positive reason or a negative reason.

BUT BETRAYALS ARE BETRAYALS.

Always remember  :

“ If you are not happy, JUST LEAVE. DON’T CHEAT” :)

Because karma does exist……………….

i don't even know..............

hai blogger. it's been quite a long time since the last time i posted here. (gak lama juga sih)
oh ya how are y'all? i'm fine. (not really).
Now it's almost midnight here. and i'm blogging with a random things on my mind #sigh
oh ya i wanna post about some picts. and the tittle of all those pict are about"WAITING" hhaha
you know laaaaaaa why i post about that pict :p
oke here they are...................

(ASS)ignments!

huaaahhhhhhhhhhh it's almost midnight.
but i'm still sitting right in front of my netbook ,doing my (ass)ingments and typing my assignments into MS. Word.
i'm so sleepy actually but THOSE F*cK*n' (ass)ignments is due on Wednesday.
Meanwhile i still have a lot of assignments to do for this week !! JUST ONE WEEK ! OMAGASHHHH !
and you knowwwww? (it's funny actually)uhmmm i put some "Koyo salonpas" on my right hand bcs my right hand hurts w/o reason.
huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!! (i think my fingers are goin to collapse !! ) lol
 ugh my backbone is gettin stiff .
i wish i can finish my f*ckin assignment asap. yeah bcs I'VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR 3HOURS BUT STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED YET!

And tomorrow i'm gonna make accounting assignment at library with my group and the problem is........................ we will make it at 9 A.M ,so i have to wake up early yaaaa >_______<  so lazyyyy!!

i just want to doing nothing for a while like this pict haha

OK BABAYYY! I'M GETTING TIRED >_<

random (•̅_•̅)

good afternoon blogger ☺
are u okay today?
uhmmm i'm not hahaha i just finished my exam today but i still have one more exam on Friday.
huhuhu it is not my day ya ~ i'm sure i can did my statistic exam easily even though there are still the blank answers hahaha
AND............................................i hate hukum bisnis exam !  i can't finish it well (̾˘̶̀̾ ̯˘̶́̾ ̾̾'̾̾)̾
okay forget about my exam. Too annoying for me  -__-" hahaha

uhmmm i'm tired today. too tired .....................(۳º̩̩́cº̩̩̀)۳
sometimes when i feel tired of my activity or something, suddenly i remember daniel :''[
sometimes i just wanna he cares to me like used to be. i really want him to ask about my problem or ask about what happened to me today. i just need it. :''''(


i wanna there's someone who cares about my condition. i just miss that moment.
can't you ask me about my feelings or even about what i was doing,huh ? can't you?
okay okay, i don't want to think too much and think too hard. because you'll never know what i'm feeling right?
bye bye my lovely blog. i'll back soon yaa :*