Dear you...........

Dear someone in my next life,

Before I'm in a relationship, you might think that I don't respect you. You might think that I'm not sensitive. But once I give my heart to you and we get into a relationship, you'll see the difference. You'll see how much I care about you. You'll see how much I love you. You'll see how sensitive I would be. I will show you that I'm different from the others. I'll make you proud to have me.  I'll make sure that you'll get a faithful girl. ;)

   Sincerely,

        Me.
(Your next girl)

        

Woman's pray o:)

Ya Allah …
Aku berdoa untuk seorang pria yang akan menjadi bagian dari hidupku.  

Seseorang yang sungguh mencintai-Mu lebih dari segala sesuatu.
Seorang pria yang akan meletakkanku pada posisi ketiga di hatinya setelah Engkau dan ibunya.
Seorang pria yang hidup bukan untuk dirinya sendiri tetapi untuk-Mu.

Wajah tampan dan daya tarik fisik tidaklah penting. Yang terpenting adalah sebuah hati yang sungguh mencintai dan dekat dengan Engkau ya Allah. Dan berusaha menjadikan sifat-sifat-Mu ada pada dirinya. Dan ia haruslah mengetahui bagi siapa dan untuk apa ia hidup sehingga hidupnya tidaklah sia-sia.

Seseorang yang memiliki hati yang bijak tidak hanya otak yang cerdas. Seorang pria yang tidak hanya mencintaiku tapi juga menghormatiku. Seorang pria yang tidak hanya memujaku tetapi juga dapat menasihatiku ketika aku berbuat salah.
Seseorang yang mencintaiku bukan karena kecantikanku tapi karena hatiku.
Seorang pria yang dapat menjadi sahabat terbaikku dalam setiap waktu dan situasi.
Seseorang yang dapat membuatku merasa sebagai seorang wanita ketika aku berada di sisinya. 

Ya Allah….
Aku tidak meminta seorang yang sempurna namun aku meminta seseorang yang tidak sempurna,
sehingga aku dapat membuatnya sempurna di mata-Mu.
Seorang pria yang membutuhkan dukunganku sebagai peneguhnya.
Seorang pria yang membutuhkan doaku untuk kehidupannya.
Seseorang yang membutuhkan diriku untuk membuat hidupnya menjadi sempurna.

Aku juga meminta,
Buatlah aku menjadi wanita yang dapat membuatnya bangga. Berikan aku hati yang sungguh mencintai-Mu sehingga aku dapat mencintainya dengan sekedar cintaku .

Berikanlah aku penglihatan sehingga aku dapat
melihat banyak hal baik dan bukan hal buruk dalam dirinya. 
Dan Berikanlah aku tangan sehingga aku selalu mampu berdoa untuknya.

notes

fall in love is like rain

"Falling in Love is like Rain. It's unpredictable but there are always signs before it completely falls"

Love never say SORRY:)

“Love means never having to say you’re sorry”

Because when you really love someone, and he has done you wrong, you have already forgiven him in your heart before he asks for forgiveness.

Dan karna Cinta itu tulus dari dalam hati. Maka itu Cinta tidak harus memerlukan kata maaf.

should i say goodbye?

hollaaaaa.
it's been 2 weeks i stop writing here.
i didn't have enough times to blogging. Btw, how are u guys?
I'm not okay. Hmmmmmm you know, from the last post here, my feelings wasn't good.
and now my feeling gets worse and even the worst.
In the morning i opened my twitter and accidentally saw him on my timeline. and I found out something.
He's in a relationship now. OMG. I was surprised and couldn't say anything at all.
Several days ago we had a conversation. I mean a short conversation. We talked about our feelings and ...............yaps finally i got the answer.We'll never be together. Never.
It hurts. Really.
But at least he said that he cared about me. That's enough for me.
Actually i've known that he was close to someone else. I knew it from twitter. And I've seen her from twitter too. I think she's pretty .hehe and they both look match. Really^^

So, what can I do now?i can't do anything except let him go.
I just hope that He would have a long last relationship with her. I hope she wouldn't make him disappointed and hurt.

For you there, thanks for making me happy. thanks for being 'just friends' with me. Thanks for being such a special guy for me. I won't regret our meeting. I won't regret everything. Congrats. Finally u found the right person for ur life. I wish you both will have a long last relationship ^^

"God, promise me that You'll protect his heart. Don't ever make him disappointed anymore. He deserves his happiness now. Let him get a faithful girl to accompany him. Let him get someone that will make him happy. Thank God for bringing me to him. Even though we wouldn't end up together, I'm quite happy meeting him and knowing him. But please God, don't ever make him forget me. I know God, it's Your best choice to keep me away from him . I won't blame on You. I know You have planned everything wisely and perfectly. I'll accept what You've given to me. Even though it's pathetic, I will always think positively. I surrender to You,God. I surrender everything to You. I know You might have prepared someone better for me, for my next life. I'll always wait for him. And until the time is right, I'll be waiting patiently. And when I got him, I promise that I would love him with all of my heart."

:3

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If you told me that you kindly wanna try again, I would run to you . But if you told me to go away, I would go ............

dark sides and bright sides ^^

Some people surely  have a bright side and a dark side. They aren’t a perfect human. Don't judge them just by their dark sides. We also have to see their bright sides.  When we think they aren’t kind  or better or  they always do something wrong, we have to know more deeply whether what we think about that person is true or not. Don’t take a conclusion quickly.

When someone you love has a dark side, don’t push them away.  But change them. Change them to get a new bright side.  Change them to be a better person. If we said that we love them in the beginning but when we knew their dark sides we just pushed them away, then we didn’t really love them.

We only know we love them. Just it. We only love them because we know their bright sides. We only know we love them without accepting their dark sides. If we said we love them, we should help them to be a better person  instead of push them away or hate them. And we should accept them no matter who they are or how they would change to be .  

 Moreover, Love also has 2 sides. When Love can make us happy and change us to be a better person, surely it’s the bright sides from Love.  But when Love make us sad because someone we love doesn’t love us back or someone we love betrays us and then we get disappointed, surely it’s the dark sides from Love.

But you know what? Love is still beautiful. Loving someone and being loved back still become one of the happiest thing in this world,right?

So, when we love someone, we have to accept their dark sides besides their bright sides. Just enjoy what we feels.  Remember, don’t push them away but help them to change. ^^

what can i do?

Hey how are you? Do you still remember me?

Seriously I wanna send a text like this to him. But I don’t have the courage to do that.

Because I know what the reply is. He might ignore my text or even just read it.  So I procrastinate sending it even though I always open his contact and write a message and then delete it again  after a few seconds.  I’m just not brave.

He seems hate me *guessing*. I always wonder , did he know all about me? Did he know everything ? Did he know what happened actually? Did he know everything I’ve been through all this time when we’re still close? I guess he didn’t know completely. He didn’t know well.

I really wanna text him but…….. whenever I think he hates me, I put off texting him. I’m scared if he would ignore my text if I texted him. I miss joking together with him. I miss the way he sent me a good night text. I miss having a stupid conversation with him.

He thought that I didn’t appreciate him. But I didn’t mean not to appreciate him.  He didn’t understand what I mean actually.  He misunderstood. He thought I compared him to a bad guy.  No, I didn’t.  I just need a process. I need a process because I just broke up with the previous one. I want him to understand my process.  I said to him that I was kinda not sure of his feelings because of my experiences before. When I said it, It meant I wanted him to make me sure that he’s serious. I also need to make myself sure that I forgot my past. Gue mau yakinin perasaan gue kalo perasaan gue udh ada di dia bukan di masa lalu gue. Gue juga mau yakinin perasaan gue untuk dia karna gue gamau setengah2 sama dia. Gue mau yakinin perasaan gue juga karna gue gamau main-main sm dia karna gue kan jg udh cape punya hubungan yang  main2. Gue mau punya hubungan yang serius sama dia. Dan itu semua butuh proses 

but when I’m on that process, he’s gone…………….

So, what can i do now? :")

I need an eraser for my life too..

If you can be something, What do you want to be?

Do you want to be a pencil? Do you want to be a flower? Do you want to be a  joker?Do you want to be a house? Do you want to be a cat? Or do you want to be something else?

And what about me? What do I want to be?

Ummmm….. I wanna be an eraser.   I wanna be an eraser for the pencil. I wanna be an eraser for someone. I wanna be an eraser to erase someone’s mistake, someone’s sadness or someone’s problem. I wanna help them. I don’t really mind if I get smaller and smaller everytime as long as their mistake vanish. I wanna be an eraser for someone so that they would be happy. I don’t care if I lose of my part.

I just want to see them happy.

I really wanna be an eraser for someone I love…..

 But sometime, I become a pencil. I’m not the perfect person. So,  I made a mistake too. I made someone sad and disappointed. Besides I want to be an eraser, I need an eraser for my life too. I also need an eraser to erase my mistake that I’ve made. I need an eraser to help me whenever I do something wrong. I also need an eraser to make my sadness vanish. Really. 

But where can I find the eraser for my life?

Would you be an eraser for my life?